Every time I come back home after seeing you, I am constantly haunted by so many "should Haves" like

I should have looked at you a little more
I should have looked a little longer

I should have hugged you or
I should have hugged you tightly....

I should have held those hands or
should have kissed the tip of your fingers...

I should have run my fingers through your hair while you slept in my arms or maybe
I should have let you sleep a little more...

I should have kissed your eyelashes or maybe I should have touched them at least...

I should have taken a cup or two more of the tea you made...
I should have asked you to let me drink from your cup.

I should have listened to your breaths with a little deeper attention or maybe I should have inhaled them in my lungs ...

I should have spent a decade more... Right there... There with you in the same planet that belongs only to both of us.
I should have kissed every hair that exists on your hands or maybe I should have matched them with mine and see how our hands sink together...

Ahhh, I should have....
I should have told you how hard it is to look away from these eyes of yours....
I should have told you how much I missed the warmth of your breaths...
I should have told you how much you mean to me...
Ahh, I should have at least told you how much I long for you when you are not right in front of me...

I should have told you no matter how much of all these I do, to me it's never enough.... 🖤